So earlier I posted about how much I hated myself for binging. Then I took a long nap and binged again after weighing myself. I walked around in self guilt then realized that gets me no where. So, I exercised as hard as I could. Even though I binged I feel a heck of a lot better, like somehow I still have control. I actually took steps to fix my binge and next time I may not even binge. Baby Steps. Tomorrow is a fast day.

Good Nite All

( It's maybe about time )

Either way... i hope everyone has a great holiday :)  

I am so staying away from the laxatives, or at least trying to for awhile. The pain the past 2 days is horrible and I look so pregnant from the bloating. Finally managed to go to the toilet at least but still. From now on it's fibre powder in water I think !!!

Don't think i'm going to hit my xmas goal (even though I did last week) As all these stomach issues have me gained a kg - 2lbs grrrrr.

But trying to stay positive, no point being negative or i'll fail. Found a good website with different diet and food tips and all sorts. Not sure if i'm allowed to post it but oh well :P 

http://allwomenstalk.com/category/dieting/

It's xmas eve here now ... I'm really not happy about xmas this year, i'm broke, unemployed and can barely afford to live for this fortnight let alone buy ppl presents and such.

Going on a hike tomorrow, should be good :) Hope you're all doing well xoxo

It's so easy to fake sick during the holidays, everyone's so busy they don't even care to mention a doctor. They don't think twice about you not eating. They say "get some rest and we'll call the doctor after xmas if you still don't feel well" Its also easier to wiggle your way out of xmas cookie making, dinner outings.. all those things&places with food expected.

So I have two questions:

The first is how do you use laxatives? I've only used them once and it was cuase i acutally needed them :X but I had sharp sharp pains in my sides becuase of it. I think I used them wrong though...I took them only a few hours befoer bed then woke up with the extreme shooting pains. How do you use them to loose weight?

and purging? I know that I've gained wait because I have started purging but I was wondering if anyone knew just exactly how much purging gets out?

Thanks girls :) stay strong through this holidays

i fudged up today big time. like i really wanna take today back, i was at my lowest weight this morning! then ughhh. :( and to top it off i cut again cause i was so mad and upset with myself. i just have to survive tomorrow, having dinner christmas dinner with the family. then i need to get back on track. i WILL get back to those number. and i will work my ass off. hmmm. :/ i hate the holidays.
but hope everyone is doing good and staying strong.<3
i want to go to sleep and never wake up because this is never going to end.

This is my millionth time posting today sorry.
But I have a question. Do any if you eat a lot even after you weigh yourself at the end of the day and hate youself?
Cause I just ate wheat thins and ice cream.
WHY?!?
It doesn't make any sense.
I'm beyond pissed.

 I'm gonna pic drop you ladies ( under the cut )

Blahhh 600 calories today
Mom made me get a soda and a Milky Way (king size :/)
Did that workot sour_plums posted today twice
It feels good and is soooo easy, it's amazing
I don't even feel hungry
I guess my stomach realized it's pointless and annoying

does anyone else get pissed off with the adverts on the side of this forum for weightloss pills and 'magic diets'?
it seems so completely wrong... its like the worst kind of exploitation, though i'm certain its not deliberate... theres just something very very messed up and almost ironic about it.
i hope everybody's okay. good luck over christmas :)... i wish it wasn't such a stressful time in the food direction...

i just felt like ranting about the adverts really.
sorry
:)
merry christmas eve everyone
xx
laura

Goals for tomorrow-
* swim for ad long as possible tomorrow
* don't eat anything
* power walk on the beach
* lose five pounds!!!

Night ladies : )
xx

Its been two days, I tried to be 'normal' gained 5-10lbs back... Freaked out. Bought organic juice to fast with... I've relasped back into cutting... I hope I go too deep.... I hope I die...

All I've had today is 4 bottles of water, a diet snapple and coffee in the morning. I spent the whole day with my boyfriend and thank god he fell for me "having a big breakfast" and "ill eat at home". I always think he's caught on to the whole act but he's so gullible at the same time. Good day I guess. We'll see how tomorrow goes....

...looking for amazing thinspo??

i just posted 21 new ones on my profile! check them out


love you all
stay strong <3

I weighed in. 147.5 at the end of the day. I haven't really gone to the bathroom in a while if you know what I mean lol.
But that's no excuse. I was 138. Fuck.
Definately restricting til I get back down. I'm a fuckin whale.
I jus got an itouch so I'll be able to check as much as I want which I am super excited about : )
147.5.
Unbelievable.
I'm glad I'm in florida with warm weather but I don't really fit into my shorts!!! Help!
I hope you are all doing well, I am very happy I have you guys to talk to : )
stay strong xx

hi
i hope the hoildays are going as well as they are going for me. My dad has decide to cut back on the juck food this year because he wants to lose weight. the only thing is that my christmas will mainly spent at my mums family at least some of the fattening food is cut out

good luck to you all of you, have a good christmas
dont stress too much and enjoy the time off :)

So we made it to Florida after two days of driving.
I'm about to weigh in and I am terrified.
I'll post after... : /